I’m in a point of my life that i don’t have more GAS to do what I need do, my life lost the colour and my paper is empty, but now is the time of catch my pen and draw again my destiny and who know, put some color, but now! I put my heart by my side, with so much pain, but i can’t live this way, afraid, always in attention and without air.

What more hurt me , is see the people believing in the obvious things. Why is so difficult believe that the people can feel love one by other, of much differents ways…. God please turn light my mind for I can do the right thing, I know that us do our destiny, but now I do this, but I know, much people and me will feel so much pain and sadness, but this is necessary, for who know, me and her, will have a good future…

But, I can’t understood why this, why is so difficult imagine that my love for her is true is strong and the love for this little girl is a love of brother, one desire of care and help, this person that I saw grow and turn a big and special friend, no more I can’t do any sexual thing or relationship, but this not is important to me, because the owner of my heart don’t is she. The owner is you crazy girl! Trust more in you, don’t listen the other people say. I do and did to you so much things, if this don’t showed to you how much I realy love you, so forget me and go ahead with your life, because this show you that I don’t do part of your life, and me don’t is the right person to you. This hurt me much, but i understand, because I can’t more see you crying and hurting yourself because this, this kill me.

You know how I hate lost and depart of things, but now is the only way that,  who knows in the future you and me can be together again. Sorry me for everything but i can’t see another way.

Life I hate you so much the each day!